This TIME article perfectly reflects my sentiments about how I need to realistically manage my expectations and the balance between what I would love to achieve (desires) and what I can most optimally achieve (i.e. keeping the most important balls juggling).
The way you live your days is the way you live your life.
One evening when my kids were young, I was outside weeding my infernal gravel yard that, if left untended, begins to look like a furry Chia Pet. They were bouncing with sheer delight on the trampoline.
“Mommy, come jump with us!” they cried. “In a minute,” I kept saying. “Just let me finish weeding.” It was a time in my life when I used to routinely ask myself, “What do I need to do before I can feel okay?” And then I’d run through a never-ending mental list. That evening, with a familiar sense of vague panic rising, I felt compelled to finish at least one thing, the weeding, on that long, long list.
Lost in my churning thoughts, I didn’t notice the sun go down. Or hear my kids go inside. When I looked…
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